• 06Jun
    Categories: life Comments: 12

    I do not have words to express the tremendous grief that I feel right now. Though I have been down this road before, that does not make losing this little one any easier. I was so excited when I found out I was pregnant, but also afraid. Afraid to be happy, afraid to anticipate a future for our child because of the loss we had experienced in the past. Now my fears have become my reality. I am tired and do not have words to express myself adequately. I have spent my energy on prayers and tears. Now I just feel empty. I know that God is sovereign, and that he has allowed this tragedy, but I struggle because I do not understand. Loss of a child is so painful, no matter what the stage of life. I am still amazed at how quickly I became attached, in spite of my reservations. Maybe one day I will have a chance to be a mother. I can hope and I can pray. The rest is in the hands of God.

    I shall be taking a break from blogging for a while. I just need some time.

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12 Comments to Loss

  • Heather, I’m so, so sorry. I was so excited for you, and now I’m so sad for you. You will continue to be in my prayers.
    Love,
    Tammy

  • i am so sorry!
    i was scared to click on your blog, for fear of this news.
    you are in my prayers.

    i lost 2 babies. if you ever need some one, feel free to email anytime.

  • I know there is nothing I could say to make you feel better. Just know you are in our thoughts and prayers. Love you,
    Karen

  • You are so right. Loss of a child is painful, no matter what the stage of life. I am sorry, Heather, so very sorry. I know that there is nothing else that I can say, because recently, my only sibling, my 41 year old younger brother, died suddenly. The things that people said to me are like a blur. The only ones that helped were the ones who simply said, “I am so sorry.”

    We can never really know what someone needs at a time like this. Words sound so hollow. Take as much time as you need. I will continue to hold you close in my prayers. Somehow, I have the feeling that you and your husband will become parents someday, in whatever way you are able. When you feel ready and up to it, it might be good for you to check out the blog of a friend I have. Her name is Alison and she has two adopted children ages 7 and 13. She tells the story of how she came to adopt both of her children and it might be something that you would like to read. Also, I am sure that she would be willing to answer any questions that you might have about what she experienced. She is that kind of person. Her blog is rdhmom.blogspot.com.

    With heartfelt thoughts and prayers,
    Debbie

  • I’m so sorry. It’s not fair. I don’t know why these things happen to good people. I wish you peace and rest.

  • I’m so sorry to hear the news..Its horrible for you..
    youre in my prayers..
    hugs,

  • I hope it is OK for me to post here. I came across your site today and I want you to know you are NOT alone in your sadness. I have been through this too. It is a hard and lonely road. Don’t give up hope. You will be in my thoughts. Best Wishes!

  • I’m so sorry to read about this – I was checking in on your blog since I haven’t seen your husband in-game in a long time. . .you are both in my prayers!